我有信心我会好起来的

肖申克的救赎

我的全部生活都被躁郁症的痛苦折磨着。从我还是个孩子的时候，我一直受到心境问题的困扰，有一段日子我会感觉到好象整个世界正向我砸过来，接着第二天或第二星期我又感觉到好象我能做任何事情。

我体验到的抑郁要比躁狂多得多——那感觉就是我没有什么价值和没有生活目标。我度过的每一天象是在浪费生命。当事情变得很糟糕的时候，我会迁移到另外一个城市并且会感到开心一段时间，但是周期性的循环又继续下去。

我总有一种孤独感和羞耻感，没有人能理解我。20岁时，我被最后确诊得了病，并开始接受药物和强烈疼痛的治疗。

在我的生活中，我失去了很多的人，仅仅是那些能理解我的疾病的家人和朋友们和我站在了一起。躁郁症对一些不知道事情会怎样发展或怎样提供帮助的人来讲是困难的。更多的是我被抛弃了，我感受到了最糟糕的情况。我试图自杀过，因为我再也无法承受痛苦和神志迷乱带来的折磨了。我曾很努力地去获得帮助但仍感到孤独。我试图治好我自己并保持住自尊心，但是我真正做的一切是在否认我的健康状况。

从一开始治疗，我遇到了许多和我有同样痛苦和感受的人。我离心理平衡还仍很遥远，但是我有信心通过现代医药和适当的帮助——总有一天在我的生命当中我会第一次感受到正常的。

Patti
I have faith that I will feel better
I have suffered with bipolar disorder all my life. Since I was a child, I have always experienced mood problems. Some days I would feel like the whole world was crashing down on me and then the next day or week I would feel like I could do anything.
I have always experienced the depression more than the mania – feeling like I am worthless and without purpose. I went through each day feeling as if I was wasting my life. When things got too hard I would move to a different city and feel happy for a while, but the cycle would continue.
I always felt alone and ashamed, and no one would understand me. I was finally correctly diagnosed at age 20 and began treatment with medication and intense therapy.
I have lost many people in my life. Only the family and friends that understand my disease have stood by me. Bipolar disorder is hard for people when they don’t know what’s going on or how to help. The more I was abandoned, the worse I felt. I tried to commit suicide because I couldn’t take my pain and confusion any more. I reached out so hard and yet I felt alone. I tried to cure myself, and keep my pride but all I was really doing was denying my condition.
Since beginning treatment I have met many people that suffer like I do and understand. I am still a far ways away from becoming balanced. But I have faith that through modern medicine and qualified help - one day I will feel normal for the first time in my life.
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秋高气爽

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他是翻译国外的文章，hoho～～，不过网上还有很多和你一样的病友，具体看各帖子