从我试图自杀到现在已经差不多有3年了,我正在尽最大努力不再让我的心灵回到过去,无论我的心灵还是邪恶的疾病都没有告诉我,我的生命是没有价值的或者我是孤独的或没有人爱我。现在我明白了这些事情都不是真理。我每天都在获取和实现希望。我的确拥有希望。
Angela
Learning to live
I have battled depression all my life. I have always felt alone, even in a crowed room. I have panic attacks. I cry a lot. I’ve had three nervous breakdowns. I have been hospitalized three times. I heard voices and saw things that were not there. I saw living and dead people. I heard voices. It was one of the most horrifying ordeals of my life.
Sometimes I don't understand myself. How I can be so happy one minute and so sad the next?
I was diagnosed at age 25, after years of isolation, loneliness, suicide attempts, not loving or liking myself, confusion, physical pain, not being able to keep a job, and my family not understanding what was wrong with me. All that ended in 1991 when I was correctly diagnosed with bipolar disorder.
I did not know anything about any mental illness until several months after my nervous breakdown. By that time I had gotten my mind back.
It is hard to cope some days, but I know I have to survive. I am learning to love myself, love life, love living, and have hope. I am trying to stop denying that I have a mental illness and MOST IMPORTANTLY – STAY WITH MY TREATMENT!
To whomever reads this: If you are suffering, there is hope.
I have my faith in God, and a loving husband of fourteen years who has supported me for 22 years. I was once told that if you have bipolar disorder, it’s impossible to stay married. I have proved that’s not true.
It has been almost three years since I tried to commit suicide. I am doing my best not to go to that place in my mind anymore. Neither my mind nor the devil can tell my life is not worth living or I am alone or no one loves me. Today I know these things are not the truth. I am gaining and getting hope every day. I DO HAVE HOPE.
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of a healthcare professional作者: 精灵娃娃 时间: 04-8-2 21:01
谢谢肖申克的救赎:)
顺便说一下,我个人很喜欢这部电影。同样是越狱和复仇,与新基督山伯爵相比,最后的结局让人折服。