*Do I think I'm special?
No! I don't think so!
There must be some people just like me,
but I don't know where they are!
I've been searching~
but there's no answer to my question!
The point is~
is there an answer?
*I'm ok if I can write,
But today I can't write anymore,
It means the situation is very bad!
But at least my dogs are so nice,
Cause they're sleeping quietly by my side!
I can't describe my feelings.
It frightens me!I'm going crazy,really!
Actually I've been crazy once!
Lost control and no one can help!
I know those who loved me wanted to help,
but they couldn't!
Sorry,I let you guys worry for me.
I don't really want these things to happen!
I just can't find the reason to live,
So I count everyday till I die,
It's very painful!
And you will never know why~
*I've got tea&coolies
If you're not leaving
I've got salad&lamb
If you are still hungry
I've got coffee&cigarette
If you want to keep talking
I've got bacon&eggs
Cause now it's morning
Actually I've got a gun
If you still don't want to leave
La la la la la la~
I've got 3 bullets in his body
You should leave early!
*是!我有忧郁症,
我想过要治好,要吃药,是啊!
吃药真的会没有那么糟,问题是~
为什么要快乐?要那么多快乐干嘛?
我想会得忧郁症的人,不是无法满足,
就是要求太高,人生本就是痛苦,
尤其在这样的环境,
再怎么样都无法达到我的快乐指数,
所以我干嘛要钻在这个死胡同里,
追求根本不存在及不切实际的东西?
我不要任何的治疗及药,
医不好的,我也不要医,
会快乐是很不正常的,
对我!
在这不快乐的世界里,
被弄成很快乐是很奇怪的事,
真的很不合理!